The only thing I have really felt jealous of – girls who can sing.
I am supposed to have a good voice and know that I can sing well. But my voice refuses to behave when I stand up in front of a crowd. I remember standing proudly in front of crowd long long ago and being horrified when I could not hold the tune or my breath, for that matter.
It has been my biggest failure.
It has been decades since the incident and the humiliation never left me. I have never again been able to be the subject of praises for my lovely voice or my soulful singing.
It is heart-wrenching to see girls who have the courage to stand up and sing like they don’t have a care in the world.
For now, in my newer social circles, I am the only one who knows that I can sing.
Do you know how hard it is to gather the courage, pick up yourself, time and again – only to be disappointed again?
Do you know how hard it is, when you have no one to blame but yourself?